Well, I bought a book after work. This is the book I was itching to buy last year however it was too expensive for an unemployed lady.
Its.. “1 Page at a Time” by Adam Kurtz. I was fascinated by this book being the lady I am whose fond of Plan B – by that virtue, what I exactly mean is I often forget to reflect on things ensuring everyone’s convenience.
It is a journal, scrapbook & anything else. It’s whatever you say it is – slowly filling the book and by the time it’s done, I’ll have a perfect keepsake of the year I made it through (again I was unemployed when I first found this book so my 1st day is today, May 19 and so.. 364 days left).
It’s full of humor and encouragement, with a self-aware slant. It’s creative inspiration for everyday life. It’s me in a book. I’m your friend, but I’m not afraid to call you out either. Get some sleep! Drink some water! This is the journal that you’re going to actually finish, if it kills us both! It’s also sentimental, introspective and encouraging, with a healthy dose of “the internet,” because that’s just how we write nowadays.
I just filled out the 1st day today and guess what.. I learned that I can only do so much!
Now, that being said, as I was listing the goals I have in mind next year, I was confronted with God telling me to TRUST Him which is in time. Earlier as I was on my way home, I kept on computing the remaining balance I have for my first year in law school at the same time the books that I need to have. Then, confronted with the goals.. I was prideful. Yes, PRIDE KILLS CALLING.
Pride begs us to believe
it all depends on us. Trusting God requires us to place our dependence on Him. And the pathway that leads us away from pride and into a place of truly trusting God is paved with humility. Humility is never bought at a cheap price. It will always cost us something but will be worth the price we pay. This was God how God used Israelites with what I am wrestling as of this writing. 2 Deuteronomy
God’s provision is what we need but not always what we want. The manna God provided to them was not like the normal food the Israelites were used to providing for themselves. But God knew it was the perfect nourishment for those in the desert. He knows our needs better than we do. God is more concerned about our ultimate good than our temporary pleasure.
God’s provision protects our heart. Our desires have the potential of corrupting our heart.
Man-made bread is not what gives the fullness of life God desires for us. Man-made success, riches and popularity are the same way. They will not fulfill us like we think they will. Only the Word of God can seep into the hungry places of our souls and make the dead and discouraged places within come fully alive and deeply satisfied. We must want Him most of all. And then He will see our hearts are prepared and trustworthy to handle other things.
If God sees big things ahead for you, and I believe He does, then He must remove all hints of pride
This experience today is a lesson for me to really TRUST GOD and believe what HE sees for me.